2003-08-18 | 8:46 p.m.
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I just read Laura's entry and realized that I, too, should probably consider signing off from my diary for the time being. I know that I don't write nearly as much as everyone else, but I am usually pleased with what I write and how often I update, though some of my counterparts may want me to update more often.

Maybe part of the reason that I need to stop being on here is because this diary is so much a part of my life here and my friends with whom I share this life. I need to begin taking the necessary steps toward beginning my new life at school - a life that I am not particularly looking forward to but a life that I chose for myself. I need to deal with the consequences of my decisions for the time being, and dealing with it all is made that much more difficult by holding so tightly to what I have here.

I am not by any means saying that I won't write in this diary anymore. If anything, I may write in it more often while down at Miami...you just never know.

Bindel said something in his diary about how this had been such a great summer and how all of his friends had contributed to that. That goes for me too. I don't think that I ever imagined having friends as good as all of you and I NEVER imagined my summer before college being this fun. Yeah, I may not have had the stereotypical summer filled with drugs, alcohol, sex, and drama (well, okay...maybe a little drama), but what I had was perfect for me.

My only hope is that I will be able to find friends at school that will help me fill the void of not seeing the people that I care so much for everyday. It is really hard for me to describe what it is that I consider you all to be. "Friends" is a term that seems to be used too loosely - Some people meet a new person and call them a friend right away. Calling you "Family" isn't quite right either, for I associate family with people that I rarely see and don't always get along with.

I suppose the best way to describe you all would be to use the term that Laura coined for us a year and a half ago. You are "Mullet Nation", the group of people that helped me become the best version of myself while having so much fun along the way. You complete me and you make me want to be a better person.

I know that I could never find people like you down at school. My only hope is that I can find people to keep me from losing that which I found...peace and happiness. I wish the same for all of you. I want you all to be happy, but I don't want anyone to forget that which we made.

To quote Dorry from "Finding Nemo"...

"I look at you, and I'm home."

And to quote Maggie (from Kati's Graduation Party)

"Always try to be the biggest and the best at want you want to do, but make sure you have fun getting there."

That is really all that I can say to you all. I love you all. I will miss you all, but I want you all to work hard this year and be happy doing whatever it is that you want to do.

I came down here just to waste some time

To get a little rest and to ease my mind

I didn't calculate it when I walked in the door

I only thought I'd stay for a minute or more

The pendulum swings

Going to and fro

And the clock goes round

Says it's time to go

And the clock goes round

And the hours fly past

Slow down pendulum you're moving much too fast

Elton John "And the Clock Goes Round"

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