2004-02-26 | 10:51 a.m.
<< The One to Bring the Change I Wish to See >>

This is going to be a short entry, so I apologize in advance. I just wanted to let you know that I am feeling better now. I'm actually FEELING now. Those anti-social desires from before are gone and I am feeling a little more like myself.

I'm realizing that I can't force people to be comfortable with themselves, that it has to come out of self-realization. Until those around me find what kind of person he or she wants to be, I need to be patient. Luckily, those particularly close to me here at school (Erin, Chris, and Crystal) seem to have a basic idea. For the rest, though, I need to understand that not everyone is as fortunate as I. I'm so lucky to have had the experience of meeting people who helped me develop into the kind of person I want to be. So, thanks.

I can't force those around me to be the best versions of themselves, but I hope I can lead by example.

Do you feel like a chain store?
Practically floored
One of many zeros
Kicked around bored
Your ears are full but you're empty
Holding out your heart
To people who never really
Care how you are

So give me Coffee and TV
History
I've seen so much
I'm going blind
And I'm braindead virtually
Sociability
It's hard enough for me
Take me away form this big bad world
And agree to marry me
So we can start all over again

Blur, "Coffee & TV"

Later Days!
Lex

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